Posts Tagged ‘HATE’

So I’m having vascular surgery Monday, my dialysis is not working properly, I just realized I overdrew my account and am now scrambling to get $50 to cover the overage and the fee. I feel like shit, my body hurts and I have to do dialysis and pull blood for testing today.

I am overwhelmed and exhausted and I have no idea what I am doing anymore. I am pretty sure that the surgery will fix the root of all the problems, except the banking, but one can’t have everything, can one.

Also, Tom and Jerry is on the TV. I hate Tom and Jerry. GAH.

So I picked up the livingroom, then I vacuumed, then I tripped over the cat (Kato) and fell down on my knee.

This traumatized the cat as much if not more than it traumatized me.

I’m pretty sure they planned this amongst themselves. It’s not enough that they cost me excruciating amounts of cash but now they are actively trying to kill me.

Bastards.

Although I wasn’t kidding when I said Kato was traumatized: he hasn’t come out from under the bed yet. I guess seeing blah blah pounds of Tracy dropping on you from above could freak out anyone, and it’s not like Kato is particularly stable at the best of time.

*sigh* Goddamned cats.

You guys are being idiots.

I say that because you expect me to pay half of the cover price of a hardcover book for my e book, even after you pushed the release date on the e book back two months after you released the hardcover. Even though there is no paper, ink, or other costs. Even though EVERY SELLER DISCOUNTS THE HARDCOVER BY AT LEAST 25%.

Not smart, guys.

I know you worry about losing money. But since I got my kindle I am buying four or five times as many books as I was before. I’m trying authors that I wouldn’t have, because the price of the books lessens the risk.

I have the same amount of money, I’m just buying more books, because I CAN.

You are being shortsighted. And you are infuriating the very people who are keeping you afloat in a time of financial crisis: readers.

I know you are certainly pissing me off.

And the shiny website you set up? The one that looks nice but somehow wholly neglects to allow customers to contact you? Yeah, you need to work on that.

In closing, I will no longer be buying books from any of your imprints until you cut out the shenanigans and get sensible in your release dates and your pricing.

Also, I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.

Sincerely,

Tracy Lynn Kaply

So it turns out that I can only get halfway into the MRI machine before the panic attack hits.

Yeah, I was surprised, too.

On the upside, my rheumatologist thinks I have rheumatoid arthritis.

Yeah, that’s a piss poor upside.

How about this: my hair looked fucking fabulous today.

And that’s me. Taking the awesome where I can get it.

So I have two doctor appointments today. The first is the neurologist, because when you have a seizure, people get concerned.

From previous experience, I’m guessing that there is an MRI and an EEG in my future. Neither prospect delights.

The second appointment is with the ENT doc. This is because my face fucking hurts, and has done so for about a week, and the antibiotics and sudafed are not really helping and I went to bed last night at 6:45 with ice packs all over my head.

This, I would like to point out, is not how I want to live my life.

So, as much as I hope that there will be answers by the end of the day, I know my luck, and there will probably just be more questions. And I’m ok with that, or I will be if my face stops hurting.